Post by Ravage18 on Jan 26, 2004 0:11:38 GMT -5
I really have no words to describe what is going to happen to me, I'm sure someone else can but not me, the only words I can think of is I'm going to die.
Sparks is the place where everyone says hi for the first time, so it makes sense that I post here, my first post was here and my last one will be. I ask that the mods not move this thread, as a last favor to me.
I few months ago, I was diagonosied with a tumor. Almost immediatly I went on chemo therapy to try and kill it, but given it's proximity to my lungs, now it's impossible for me to continue the therapy without my lungs becoming too weakened to function.
On Wednesday, I am going in for surgery to attempt to remove the tumor, but there is a good chance I might die, that's why I'm making this thread, to say good-bye to everyone here.
You guys have always been kind to me, treated me as a friend despite my rather odd nature. I really can't put into words how it feels that you guys trusted me and treated me, all the kindness you given, I really can't put into words, so to put it crudely, it was great.
I wish I could give say something to all my friends and tovarishs here, but before I could finish saying something to them all, my hands would probibly fall off .
There is a chance I could live, so I don't want anyone thinking I'm doomed, but if I do live, it will be some time before I can come back. Hoist and I have decided on a system so that he will know I'm alive. If someone has starts posting using my name, he will know it's me or not.
I have given control of my RPG characters to people I trust, I have sent them IMs if I haven't already informed them. But I do expect control of them to be returned to me if I come back.
There are so many things I wish I haven't done, one of the worst I have confided to Jinx. But there are many things I wish I could of done, I wish I could of visited my father's homeland longer then a few days. I wish I could of seen my mother's ancestralial home in Russia. I wish I could of done so much.
I really don't know what else to say, I'm a little emotional right now. Please, pray for me, I need ll the help I need Oh God I dont want to die, I'm just so scared please, pray for me!
Sparks is the place where everyone says hi for the first time, so it makes sense that I post here, my first post was here and my last one will be. I ask that the mods not move this thread, as a last favor to me.
I few months ago, I was diagonosied with a tumor. Almost immediatly I went on chemo therapy to try and kill it, but given it's proximity to my lungs, now it's impossible for me to continue the therapy without my lungs becoming too weakened to function.
On Wednesday, I am going in for surgery to attempt to remove the tumor, but there is a good chance I might die, that's why I'm making this thread, to say good-bye to everyone here.
You guys have always been kind to me, treated me as a friend despite my rather odd nature. I really can't put into words how it feels that you guys trusted me and treated me, all the kindness you given, I really can't put into words, so to put it crudely, it was great.
I wish I could give say something to all my friends and tovarishs here, but before I could finish saying something to them all, my hands would probibly fall off .
There is a chance I could live, so I don't want anyone thinking I'm doomed, but if I do live, it will be some time before I can come back. Hoist and I have decided on a system so that he will know I'm alive. If someone has starts posting using my name, he will know it's me or not.
I have given control of my RPG characters to people I trust, I have sent them IMs if I haven't already informed them. But I do expect control of them to be returned to me if I come back.
There are so many things I wish I haven't done, one of the worst I have confided to Jinx. But there are many things I wish I could of done, I wish I could of visited my father's homeland longer then a few days. I wish I could of seen my mother's ancestralial home in Russia. I wish I could of done so much.
I really don't know what else to say, I'm a little emotional right now. Please, pray for me, I need ll the help I need Oh God I dont want to die, I'm just so scared please, pray for me!